I cannot handle it anymore!!

I have received comments on my last post telling me that I should not be negative about Egypt on my blog because this will stop the foreigners/tourists from coming. So, anyone not 100% Egyptian please stop reading now!
Oh yeah, Egypt is a great place and I really think you should come....

Now, I will say that I love Egypt. I adore this country, This is the country that I do consider home.
This country is beating the shit out of me. Everyday I feel like I get the wind knocked out of me.

I cannot do it anymore.

I give up!
I decided that I have to get out. I cannot live here anymore.
I am leaving.
I am moving away from the home that I love so much.

I never wanted to be bitter. I fought so hard. I ignored so much. But in the end, I lost. Bitterness came and it conquered. It conquered and consumed me.

It is almost daily that a man makes an obscene comment to me. I am forced to witness an obscene geture. I am being stared at. I get touched, grabbed, and so much more....

That is it. I tried to not let it get to me. And I guess I did well for a long time.
But now I just give up. I cannot fight this anymore.

I cannot allow myself to become so numb to so much.
I cannot let people blame me because I am attacked in the streets.
I cannot be afraid going home because a car is following me and I live alone.
I cannot go home upset because a man made me feel cheap.
I cannot be out and feel afraid that someone will hit my car to stop me.
I cannot be afraid of every man as I walk down the streets.
I cannot be worried about my friends in taxi's because of what I have seen from taxi drivers.
I cannot act normal in the middle of so many not so normal events.

Well, I came, I tried, and I failed.
Congratulations Egyptian men!! You won...